I was reading a blog post by a fellow adoptive mother who is waiting to bring home her China kiddos. Because of past experience, and her life circumstances, she was fully trusting God and His plans for them. But her peace in trusting Him came from the fact that she felt sure she knew what His plans for them were… of course, she was wrong. And she is thankful that she trusted in Him and his designs, because things are more beautifully crafted now than how she had pictured them in her mind. Sometimes you have to step towards the Lord and meet Him where He is.
And then there’s us. In many ways we were trying to write our own story, and you all know how well that worked out… But I was thinking about this mom, and how she had the “perfect” age range in mind, and how we did, too. God asked her to step out of her vision and towards His, but He met us right where we were. Of course, most of this is not happening as we planned or envisioned. He is stretching us and growing us, and we are excited about His plans. But he did give us that one thing- the age. It’s perfect for us because it met both Chris’ hopes and mine. And I think it’s a wonderful age for transitioning (learning a new language and being small enough to cuddle). I also think it’s a great Age for Austin to meet his new brother, because he loves playing with other little boys – the more energetic the better! So, that being said, I believe that God knows exactly where we are in our lives- how strong our hearts are, how flexible our minds are, and how tightly we hold onto control. Knowing this (and knowing more about our hearts, futures, and what we are capable of than we do), he has us meet at just the right place. The path we wanted to be on and the path He has for us intersect somewhere. Sometimes it’s messy. Sometimes it’s crystal clear, but it is always good. I’m excited to walk down this path. I know that my stubborn, selfish heart will struggle with letting go of control. I know that this will not be an easy change for any of us. But it is going to be so, so very good.
“The heart of man plans his way, but the Lord establishes his steps.” Proverbs 16:9
“The LORD is good to all, And His mercies are over all His works.” Psalms 145:9
“Then God saw everything that He had made, and indeed it was very good.” Genesis 1:31